Through out my writing life I’ve always had to try and balance work and writing. A lot of time they’ve both required a lot focus or time and have lead to some extremely long days, weeks and months with one or two burn outs along the way.
A few years ago while working tons of hours over the Christmas period I was also working on a TV show writing several episodes with a very short deadline. Worked out that I was working close to 40 hours a week in a retail shop and writing for about another 40-50 hours per week. Every spare second I had was spent writing. To the extent that I can’t even begin to explain how many receipts from my job at the time had notes written on them.
The stupid thing was I kind of loved it. I would have preferred that all 90 hours been writing time but that wasn’t possible. But that level of commitment and work ethic suited me. I enjoyed the challenge and put everything I had into it and believe I produced some strong work while also learning a hell of a lot.
That experience hasn’t repeated itself since and somehow along the way the writing/work balance tipped in the wrong direction and I found myself putting more of my energy into work. There are reasons for this but a lot of them reasons have since faded and what i’m left with is a slight regret because while my energy went into work my passion and heart are always with writing and film making.
I didn’t neglect my writing, and in fact have got a lot done, but I know I could have had more and now is the time to correct that. My current circumstances in life have almost accidentally given me an opportunity to once again make writing everything and that’s what I want. Have left work and am hoping to bring an end to my 17 year retail career and make writing and film making my sole purpose.
Is going to be nervy at times as like everyone I have debt and money commitments but I believe I’ve worked out a way to make this work and have to. Is about time that my passion in life get 100 percent of me.
Will soon know if this is a stupid decision or not, but my hearts telling me to do it and that’s good enough for me.